As most of you may be wondering.....and wishing....and praying....and hoping, PART 2 is finally here. Upon reflecting my life leading into the new year, i see that so many things have changed, not for the worst, but so much for the better. It started off with an awesome time at home on new year's eve with my family, spending quiet time leading towards midnight thanking God for these 18 awesome years of life with songs of praise and worship. Somehow New Year's Day wasn't so much about parties after parties but more of a quiet time to focus on how i would like to start the new year.
I came to see things in a whole new perspective.
I came to accept faults and troubles brought upon me.
I came to realize that the life given to us isn't a life of remorse and misery.
I came to see how much God loves us by speaking through people and experiences
I came to accept that my foes are not meant to be hated but to be forgiven,
I came to accept that there's life is a living hell without God.
I came to realize that pride will do nothing but kill us.
I came to accept God does not owe it to me that I am alive today,
but I owe everything to him for the unconditional, forgiving and everlasting love that He's given to me.
I've got a bit of a story to share.
I headed to the bank outside my office after work at about 6.30 as i had some banking to do, and so you know, traffic at Damansara Uptown during this hour is madness. Knowing how predictable Malaysian traffic becomes, i decided to take my own tiny little sweet time to get my banking done as i knew the bus wasn't gonna be here on time. Matter of fact, the bus only arrived at like 7.45pm so i practically waited there for almost an hour. As i was making my way to the bank, there was a malay lady sitting on the steps right by the bank entrance and she said, "adik, beli satu adik." She was selling packed cashew nuts in a basket. I just replied by saying, "its alright kak. thanks." So as i got on and completed my banking, i walked out of the bank and the lady called me again but i just ignored her and walked towards the main road to wait for the bus. Frankly, I found the price extremely ridiculous as it costed 2 bucks for a pack of cashew nuts barely the size of a pack of tissue paper. As i was walking, i asked God, "Lord, what do i do?". I walked around in circles for awhile, and God just answered me. "Nick, my point is this. Its not always about you. Its not about whether you want to eat the cashew nuts or not. Its a matter of buying it from her so help her. Make this effort to help her will you?"
Knowing it was God speaking to me, i decided to listen and i bought a pack from her . Obviously she insisted on me buying more but i just told her, "kakak, saya beli ni nak tolong kakak ya". I passed her the money and walked away, drowning in thoughts of whatdidyouthinkyouweredoing and God, i hope i did the right thing.
Even as i walked off, i was still unsure about whether what i just did was right or not, so instantly i appeared in front of Starbucks Coffee and i was tempted to get one especially after knowing how good they are from my experience of working with the niche coffee house once. Now that really cemented God's point in my head, "so if you think you deserve Starbucks, why didn't you buy another packet of cashew nuts from her?". So i walked off...... Now it brings to show that life isn't all about us but also about others as well. What's the point of being rich in finances but poor in humility?
I guess this wraps up another wordy post as most people describe my blog but..................
i'm sorry i just can't help it.
^_^
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